a note to the bestest:)

its said that blood is thicker than water, but i know differently. i was adopted by a best friend and her family and have consequently become entangled in a web so thick of love, i could never find my way out again if i tried. i don't know what i did to deserve such loving friends and family so far away from my real home, but i am relentlessly thankful for having been so blessed. THANK YOU doesn't suffice what i really wish to express, but it's all i can think of saying to you for showing me such friendship & love. I appreciate everyone sharing in such a special party for me! Thank you all, especially Katie, Mel & Roy, for helping me transition to my new life on the east coast...tonight helped reassure me this is where i belong:) i love you guys!

3 nights/days left...

its beyond crazy to think our life is just a series of choices. from small ones to great ones...our lives are a summation of our choices. point blank. from choosing to go to college, to choosing to be out on a given night when you happen to meet THE ONE- its our choices that dictate what happens to us in the long run, and ive inevitably reached a point in my life where the next choice will clearly DEFINE the very person i am to become. i could've chosen to stay here in california after graduating, but for some reason (love?) i knew the only real choice i could make was going back to new york. everything i want in a career and lifestyle (at least for now) is over there on that tiny, dirty, crowded little island- Manhattan. or as carrie bradshaw once put it, MENhattan;) i feel sure of this choice & dont give room for the "what-ifs" to pop up in my mind. sure im leaving family and friends behind, but i'd be leaving much more behind if i chose not to move back to manhattan. i'd be losing an opportunity to meet like-minded individuals, find a fast-paced career in magazines, become someone, and ultimately, im pretty sure, meet a man who's just as driven and excited about the same things in life as me. mel always tells me my prince charming is on the east coast, and after spending several months on the west coast (although not entirely active in pursuing the dating thing), i think she's right. ultimately the choice makes sense for right now- for who i am right now. im itching to get out and DO and BE and, just...GO. so after the crying and hugging subsides in 3 days, i'll be left with that amazing, refreshing, exhilerating feeling of "here i go." and really, there's nothing better than that.

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