dating. dates. those words haven't necessarily been music to my ears, to say the least. they scare me. its hard enough to find time for myself lately with the two jobs. any blessed down time is usually spent playing catch-up with chores, groceries, laundry etc. oh, and feeding myself. so when spring came around and, seemingly out of the blue, the boys started popping up like flowers I had two choices: take the date invites or continue on my single girl walk. i must admit, i've been more inclined to take them. of course, a girl has to know how to practice choosing wisely, but even so, i've pushed myself out of my safe zone and let them wine and dine me. one was terrible, one was definitely the makings of a cool friendship (nothing more) and another was...kinda, great. shocker! i've been putting off a few more invites, turning down a couple too and still keeping an eye out for the construction company owner my bff is trying to set me up with (she asked him for his number...for ME. thats how sure she is we'll hit it off. wow.), bless her heart. i finally understand SATC. theres some funny/weird/crazy ones in MENhattan, but getting to meet them hasn't been all that bad. i dont want to think im actually DATING, like an adult..i feel more comfortable befriending. dating/befriending - it's all hard work and at the end of the day, I'm happy to be standing on my own two feet. i don't know how comfortable i am with the thought of letting anyone get too close, but like mr. Great pointed out: you can't be scared of opening up, if someone makes you laugh and you enjoy their company, why not keep them around? its like a breath of fresh air. for now we're just enjoying the laughter and letting the laundry pile up a bit.
