last week my horoscope warned against using foods for comfort. the week before, it suggested i channel my creativity to keep myself sane. this week it's stressing money management (yeeeeah, i roll my eyes...im BROKE). it seems like these three topics are on perma-cycle. what could this be telling me? get creative with my money and open up a restaurant? it's funny how this psychobabble horoscope app never ceases to entertain me...even though it's incredibly vague and inaccurate for the most part.
what is it about having direction or gaining deeper insight into your future that makes you feel so comforted? even when you know its fake?
at least im not spending my time booking $150 psychic readings like a certain friend of mine. ehhem. drew.
$0.99 cent iphone app. tells me everything i could ever want to believe (you are headed for great progress in your career). or not (you should consider a dating coach).
so much has happened in the last month, i don't know where to begin.
life is moving at a ridiculous pace, and all i can say is i LOVE it. the ins, outs, highs, lows, theres something here that fuels my passion and drives my spirit to reach small (but insanely exciting) triumphs almost every day. everyday has been a new exciting page in this chapter, and regardless of the times when i miss home and my family and friends- life is good here. regardless -even- of my low funds, small home, little belongings and very minimal collection of shoes (sigh, louboutins still to come) i can genuinely say theres something awake in me that was asleep when I was back home in California.
day to day is stressful, challenging, scary, nerve-racking, vomit-inducing and exciting, wonderful and brand new. not many people can brave the challenge of truly living a brand new day every day. my job is not the norm day in day out with the same mundane tasks- it challenges me and throws me curveballs all day every day. and although its not GQ or Vanity Fair, its an exciting step closer to the mecca of fashion where i eventually want to end up: 4 Times Square- Conde Nast Publications. and actually, thats cutting myself short. its not where i want to end up, so much as another step i'd like to take. who knows where i'll end up, all i can say is...its truly an exhilerating ride im on.
maybe its true what they say- its not the destination, but the journey and those you journey with that matter most.
after turning 23 last week (AAAAH...mid 20s??), i realized im right where i feel i belong. serious about my career, but not too serious, having fun, but being responsible, learning, growing and best of all achieving BY MY SELF. i couldnt have planned the roadmap to my life better (nod to the man above)...i had no idea the strength i had, and how desperately i needed to do things on my own for this stretch of my life. had you asked me 2 years ago, i wouldve thought marriage was around the corner at this point (NUTS). life feels full of intense energy- sometimes so intense, it's hard to take it all in.
thats the point im at right now. just trying to take it all in as the ride slowly, yet steadily, creeps higher and higher to the top...
