i got the job!!!

5 days shy of Christmas, i received the best xmas gift of 2010...the offer for PARENTS magazine - im officially an editorial assistant! first step in the editorial world...i start just after the new year, could there seriously be a better way to start a new year than with a new job?? i think not :)

the great boost of confidence (several people were interviewed for the position) pushed me to celebrate my awesomeness with the goldest, glitteriest manicure EVER. now i sparkle on the outside the way i feel on the inside! awwwww...

he evokes a feeling in me. like a time i wandered away from my mother at the store and for one or two brief minutes thought i'd never find her again.

it started snowing today, not sure if it will stick, but i might wake up to a white city. the first snows are always something special to me...i never get tired of waking up to the first blanket of snow here. every store you walk into is playing christmas music, lights decorate most store fronts and streets, and walking around all bundled up in a big coat, scarf, and boots, makes me feel unlike anything else.

i wish i could share the holidays with my family again...here...in this snow filled city.

im ready...but im not.

im ready to diet and exercise...but im not ready to give up starbucks holiday drinks or fries.

im ready for a full time job...but im not ready to settle for walking dogs in 28 degrees.

im ready for a boyfriend...but im not ready for a match.com to tell me my ideal mate is 31, balding, and a rainbow chaser.

im ready to start saving every last penny...but im not ready to go 6 months without a mani/pedi or hair cut. oh nooooo.

im ready to wake up earlier...but im not ready to stop hitting snooze for an hour and a half.

im ready to get over certain toxic people...but im not ready to pick up a replacement habit.

im ready to make new friends...but im not ready to show anyone what street i live on.

im ready to stop relying on my horoscope for daily introspection...but im not ready to have my mother weigh in on my future on a daily basis.

im ready to visit the tarot lady downstairs...but im not ready to hear about my 3 future divorces.

im ready to write down 2011 resolutions...but im not ready to feel like crap at the end of January.

im ready for another holiday season sans la familia...but im not ready to witness Snooki coming down IN the ball drop this new years.

im ready to move back home and call it quits...BUT IM NOT.

im ready to keep moving.

LIFE IS AN ETCH A SKETCH. shake. start over.