warhol'n it up.

sometimes i get the feeling my life could easily be portrayed in a series of postive/negative still shots. definitely not black and white negatives, though. it'd be more like andy's- boldly colorful with different shades of neon. moments that have shaped my life are still shots that can be seen in so many different ways- not limited to positive or negative, necessarily. for example, graduating. on the one hand: amazing. lots of hot pinks up in that shot of my mortarboard being tossed in the air at Radio City Music Hall...on the other hand: scary. lots of pale blues in a negative of that same shot. life is built up of tiny little [eventually huge] moments that shape who we've been, who we are right now and who we will be; the problem is we don't realize how greatly our attitude about the things that happen to us impacts how we turn out. in other words, how it determines the colors in our still shots. focusing on what you want is different than focusing on what you don't want..in the same way, im realizing that i have a tremendous power to change how i feel about certain situations and events that take place in my life by simply switching the lens of color. i can view the same picture in one color or totally flip it and expose it's opposite colors. its all in the colors i choose to see. i want to focus on flipping my pictures, giving them a new colorful exposure. i want to take everything thats thrown my way and change my perspective on it, because lately i find myself focusing on what i dont want to do versus what i want to do. im focused on what i dont want to be instead of building on what i want to be. it seems easy, but in general, tough times lead people astray- all of a sudden we're focused on the negatives. mental note: flip it. all of it.
right now im trying the D word. dieting. ugggh. i hate it sooo much but theres a prime example for ya. try telling me not to eat white carbs. all of a sudden, whats all i want? rice with cheeseburger buns, funfetti cake and fries. its focusing on what i shouldnt be eating instead of focusing on what i should be eating. how much easier would life be for me if i just focused on all the foods i need to get more of? (ps-oatmeal & carrots are amazing & at the top of my fun/good-for-you foods) same goes for LIFE. ever-a-thang..yes EVER-A-THANG. i have to paint the same pictures in different, bolder, better, brighter colors. in other words, i gotta WARHOL it. take everything i have and give it a new spin. trickery works, people...tell yourself you're awesome long enough & you'll start to be it!
somebody give me a damn smock. im ready:)